God Where Were You When I Was Breaking | S2 Ep 6

Welcome back to The Finally Healed Podcast! In this vulnerable and uplifting episode, Jessica Lundy dives deep into those difficult moments when it feels like God is silent and you’re left wondering, “Where are you?” Sharing her own honest journey—including her time in the hospital during a traumatic birth experience—Jessica opens up about battling feelings of fear, frustration, and isolation, while reminding us that we’re never truly alone.

You’ll find encouragement rooted in the scripture Isaiah 41:10, honest reflections on faith during life’s storms, and practical advice for drawing closer to God, even when circumstances seem overwhelming. Jessica discusses how negative emotions can creep in, why it’s important to take responsibility for our spiritual connection, and how to find support from your community and faith.

Don’t miss her special “healing moment” journaling exercise to help you reconnect with God in hard times, plus her top tip: keep three foundational scriptures on hand for encouragement.

You are loved, seen, and never fighting alone.

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Chapters

• 0:00 Promise Against Fear
• 0:46 Naming The Silence And Doubt
• 2:01 Scripture As Anchor
• 3:11 Honest Self‑Assessment
• 4:04 Hospital Trial And Jealousy
• 5:35 Borrowed Belief And Focus
• 6:25 Fight Like A Warrior
• 7:14 You Are Never Alone
• 8:55 Healing Moment Homework
• 9:56 Closing And Encouragement

Transcript

Promise Against Fear

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Do not fear, I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. It was so challenging because life kept going on, and I had to watch everyone's highlight reel from a hospital bed where I had to borrow some belief. Don't look at your circumstances. Look to the heavens above. Now I am super excited about this. Now I'm gonna meet you with some honesty today. I'm gonna be very vulnerable. So I need you to meet me in the comments with that same level of vulnerability. You gonna do that? Okay, great. Have you ever looked at your life? I'm talking about your career, your relationship, different things happening around you. And you ever wondered, God, where are you? Like, I know your word said that you will never leave me or you wouldn't forsake me, but like, where where are you now? Like, like you've been praying and you ain't hearing nothing. I I know I can't be the only one. You're reading your word, and you're like, God, where are you? So we're trained as a society to keep going and keep pushing, even though we're doing all of the things that we're supposed to be doing. But sometimes it feels like it's not producing the fruit that we desire. And so when I'm in those times where I'm feeling like God is silent, like I'm wondering, like, is he even listening to me? Like, I thought I was God's favorite child. I am reminded of the scripture. And I'm gonna read it to you because I think it is that important. Isaiah 41, 10, this NIV version says, So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Let me tell you why I love that. First, it says, Do not fear. That means that fear is gonna come and fear is gonna be present. So I think if we start approaching situations knowing that fear is gonna come, we will be less thrown off when it shows up. And it says, For I am with you. One thing I know to be true about the word of God, it is truth. So if God says that he's going to be with us, then we have to choose to receive that, even though we don't feel his presence. Now, this might hurt. Sometimes when I feel like God is silent or I feel like God is far from me, I have to take responsibility. It could be very easy to blame a God that we can't see, than to look in the mirror at yourself that you can't see. And so I realize I had to start going through a sequence of questions of how committed have I really been to the things of God? Maybe I need to start fasting more. Maybe I need to start denying my flesh so that I can get closer to the things of God. When I have to really be honest with how I'm evaluating the relationship, am I treating our relationship casual or am I giving God the same energy that He's giving me? Once I start to kind of go through that list, I realize, oh wait, maybe I'm the problem. Maybe it's me. And it always comes back to us because we're humans and we're flawed, and that's okay. But we have to choose to not stay in that place. We have to choose to get better and better every day. I'll never forget when I had that moment of God, where are you? When my daughter was born, you know, it was a traumatic experience. We ended up having her at 24 weeks. But when I was in that hospital for that couple of weeks before I had her, it was so challenging because life kept going on, and I had to watch everyone's highlight reel from a hospital bed. And those feelings of jealousy started to creep in. And I nailed it in the butt because what I didn't want is to continue to let those feelings fuster, and then that turn into bitterness and that turn into um all of these negative things. And I think sometimes we don't realize that we have the ability to be able to stop these negative behaviors before they continue to get out of control because we are the ones in charge of our destiny. And so I had to, in real time, say, I am not missing out. I am where I'm supposed to be. God is covering me in this hospital. Whatever I miss out or feel that I'm missing out on, God will restore me. Like sometimes, like the word says you have to encourage yourself because it knew a time was going to come when you were gonna actually have to utilize that. And so, in real time, I'm fighting for my life. I feel my my my organs shutting down. I feel like my body is shutting down and I had to use the word of God. I remember in the hospital, one of the things I love, Creflo Dollar has this uh healing scriptures on YouTube. And when I tell you I had that on repeat, sometimes it was real real quiet, real like in the background, but I knew it was ministering to my heart because I was in a season where I had to borrow some belief because I'm looking at my circumstances, and that's why the word always says, Don't look at your circumstances, look, look to the heavens above. But but in that moment, I felt validated looking at what was right in front of me. Some of y'all are dealing with some serious challenging. You might be dealing with some problems going on in your marriage, you might be dealing with some issues going on with your children, you might be struggling with your job, you might be unemployed right now, and you're like, God, where are you? I promise you, he's there. And I promise you, he loves you. And I promise you, he cares about you. And I promise you, you are still his favorite child. But this is a challenging situation, and you're gonna have to fight. I love that song that lace up your boots. Come on, somebody, put on your backpack, okay? That song says it's time to ride, meaning you're going to have some to take some action in the things of God. See, you if it for my believers out there, if you chose to be a Christian, that means you chose to be a fighter. That means you chose to be a warrior, okay? That you are strong. And so I need you to really lean into that strength that you have. Sometimes you got to reach down deep. And this is why you can't fight alone. Because sometimes you don't have it. I promise you, there were days where I was in that hospital and it felt like one day was the equivalent to a week. And I'm like, I'm about to lose my mind in here. Like, what am I gonna do? But then I would receive an encouraging text, then I would receive a message. I remember my big brother Jeremy Anderson hit me with a voice note on the beach, like, Jess, we we're praying for you every morning. I'm getting up at 6 a.m. praying for you. Like I had friends praying for me, I had family praying for me, I had so many people. So even though these times when this happens, you feel like you were in the fight alone. Hear me clear. You are never alone. Even in times of isolation, even in times of frustration, like God is there for you, but man is there for you. Meaning, sometimes it feels like you don't have anybody by your side. But when you reach out, sometimes reaching out takes action and it can feel a little bit frustrating because you might be that friend that you're like, man, why am I always the one reaching out to everybody else? That just might be your assignment. Let's just accept it and move on. But I want to encourage you that you are never alone, you are never by your side, God is always fighting for you, and I promise you got some friends, some family, or even somebody like me, where God will wake me up at 3 a.m. to pray for somebody across the globe. Know that somebody is always praying for you, they're covering for you, they love you, you are loved. If you haven't heard that you were loved today, I want to tell you that I love you, that I see you, that I care for you, that you are important, that you are valuable, and you are worthy. So we have come to our healing moment, which is my favorite part of the episode where I give you a little bit of homework, and I really want you to get quiet and journal. When I feel distant from God, what adjustments do I need to make? And when you journal this, this journaling might be coupled with tears, might be coupled with some honesty, and that is okay because that's what we have to do. And I want you to sit with that every time those situations come. I want you to go back to that verse in Isaiah and encourage yourself. Remind yourself of what the word says. What I always recommend to my friends and to my very close clients is in the note section of your phone, keep three foundational scriptures that can be your go-to scriptures that you can utilize when you're in these challenging times. Because God loves you and I love you. Well, this has been another episode of the Finally Heal Podcast. If you enjoyed this episode, share it with a friend. 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